Thoughts and a woman ... hmmm

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Phil 4:6-7

From the title of this entry, you might get the wrong idea ... lol. Let's start with the thoughts:

Over the past week, I have been tossed around like a ship in the middle of a hurricane ... maybe I should say that I have let myself be tossed around. I have let ridiculous thoughts come into my head to the point I wanted to give up, I didn't want to hear about God any more. I didn't want to listen to a "pretty" song praising Him.

This is really interesting. I was about to give up credentials, dreams, and desires. How is this even possible? Well, let see. The Psalmist tells us in 10:4 that "in his pride the wicked does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God." and again in 13:2 "How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?" 1 Corinthians 3:30 "The Lord knows that the thoughts of the wise are futile."

Wow ... what have I been doing? Trying to control something that I cannot, something that hurts so much that it is unbearable, and I want to change it. God forgive me for what I have thought and said!

This is where the woman comes in ... well, God, a woman, and the Holy Spirit! That woman finally had enough of my wallowing and running that she confronted me. Good for her! Thank you Lord for an amazing wife! Thank you for the Faith you have given her.

Hebrews 3:1 states "Therefore, holy brothers, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, the apostle and high priest whom we confess." And James 2:4 says "have you not discriminated among yourselves and become judges with evil thoughts?"

Years ago I surrendered my life to Christ; my favorite scripture was Gal 2:20 "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." However, here is a new test. Can I surrender the life of my beloved wife? Do I trust God with the life of my wife? Do I really believe that God is in control of this situation? Will He be my comforter? Is He truly my all powerful God that I believe Him to be?

The Answer: Yes.

The result: Stop believing the thoughts in my head.

Do I like it: Well, no, I really don't like the situation, but God is God and I am not! I will however praise Him in good times and bad!